I received my annual evaluation yesterday. It was very kind and affirming. As I sat with our Chief of Staff, I loved how every suggestion for minor changes were right on with my known weaknesses - no surprises. It always fascinates me to see myself through others eyes.
What surprised me the most was the fact that most areas I could be a little stronger in, were the very areas of strengths and gifts God gave me.
I am a relational leader. Team building, creative, relationships, keeping everyone affirmed and assured that their contributions are vital to this ministry, rah, rah, rah, (ok, so I was a cheerleader in High School, what can I say??) These same good attributes cause me to turn a blind eye to minor problems or put off confrontation.
Man, how can this be?? My greatest strengths are my biggest weakness? Do I use my gifts or don't I??
I THINK THIS MAY BE THE ANSWER: I work the hardest on things that don't come naturally to me. Sometimes easy = lazy.
So evaluation is nothing but good, it refocuses me, forces me out of my comfort zone. Some of the goals that were set for me seem totally impossible, but if others see possibilities in me I am blind to, I have to assume they could be right. It is no mistake I have been put under their authority to create and accomplish what God intends for my life.
I have been evaluated - and I fully embrace it!