my day off

I can't even count how many friends in the past couple of weeks have talked about how fast time is going.  It has come up over and over - and not just from people my age...

It's caused me to really spend time thinking about how God wants me to spend my time. - my day off.

I believe He is honored when I rest, when I actually take a day off, but I find myself so swamped on my days off that it interferes with my accomplishments!

And that's where I am right now as I sit down to journal.

I look at what takes my time and I must admit, most of it I suspect God could care less about - it's not what He needs from me.   That's a particularly difficult battle we who are on staff in ministries fight - does our work count as God time since we work for a church?   Or is that in His sight our job and He cares more about the rest of our lives?  Interesting to think about.

First of all I understand  - God has no interest in my 'strivings' - there's nothing I can earn with my work.  If that's true - why do I feel like I always need 'to do'?  American mindset?  I sometimes feel like my life could be best summarized with one of my dad's many phrases - I tend to 'Put the Cart Before the Horse'!  Waiting is seldom in my dictionary.

All of that to say - I'm spending time with Him this morning on my day off - so thankful for that, and I really do care about the priorities of my day, I care that they honor Him, enrich other's lives and accomplish tasks that need to be done - I'm striving toward always being available to Him.

I guess that's truly what it's about, just being available to Him so we don't miss what could be the best things instead of trying to control everything.

If I focus on Him will it slow down the pace of living?  I don't know - but I'm determined to give it a shot - again!

Will you join me today - making room for the very one who created our days?

dissapointing night technically

How do you react when things don't go as you planned? Especially when you work on something for a really, really long time?

My reaction was not pretty tonight.

I had worked on the Beth Moore event for several months only to experience a HUGE thunderstorm minutes before we went live that knocked out our video feed. I rallied the prayer team to take it to the Lord and 15 minutes later we had it back. However...the audio was messed up the entire night! I was very, very upset, in fact I went to my office to listen to it there because the feed through my TV was a little better sound.

Everyone assured me afterward that they still were very blessed by the night...I hope they all come back tomorrow.

I like excellence a lot, and I don't like it when other people's problems make our ministry look un-excellent ( I know, I know it's not a word). Did all my fussing do any good, of course not. In fact I'm pretty sure the enemy was laughing his head off because I missed a blessing.

I am praying that everything is resolved tomorrow, but, I'm also going to come prepared to worship despite the technical issues...I will pray and I'll try really hard to take it all in and not be defeated by things beyond my control- as if anything is actually in my control...