Friday, August 22, 2008

Voiceless leader

lead-er (lee-der) noun 1. a person or thing that leads

No spectacular definition, no fancy description, just a person that leads. That is me.

In recent years my confidence in my own leadership has been greatly affected by what I realize now is truly a handicap. My family and friends began to notice several years ago that my voice would sound funny, so I finally went to a throat specialist. Diagnosis - dysphonia.

Dysphonia is basically spasms, and these spasms are in my vocal chords. This has been devastating at times. Never more so then when I recently tried to speak from the stage in our MidWeek service. I was being interviewed along with the four staff members I supervise. We are the Magnification team.

The guys were spectacular, I was a mess. I had so much I wanted to tell our audience about how hard the guys work, and how much all of us care deeply for our Magnification teams. I could barely speak.

Leaders should have a good voice, a strong voice, but at times I have no voice.

For now this is my voice, writing. This avenue of conversation has opened up to me just when I needed a way to speak. In the traditional way of leading and speaking I will be silent for a while and ask for healing, but in this format of speaking I will speak loudly as God allows.

Ecclesiastes 3:6-8 (English Standard Version)
6a time to seek, and a time to lose;a time to keep, and a time to cast away; 7a time to tear, and a time to sew;a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

I am ready for a quiet time before the Lord.

I am, a person that leads, as the definition above states.... just not in the typical way.

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