Today began with clearing furniture from rooms and filling other rooms with the removed items so that I cannot enter, in order to be ready for new carpet. That being done, I write!
I was reading the forward from a book on prayer and came across the most amazing description of God...
"Rising early one morning, I heard the baying of a score of deerhounds in pursuit of their quarry. Looking away to a broad, open field in front of me, I saw a young fawn making its way across, and giving signs, moreover, that its race was well-nigh run. Reaching the rails of the enclosure, it leaped over and crouched within ten feet from where I stood. A moment later two of the hounds came over, when the fawn ran in my direction and pushed its head between my legs. I lifted the little thing to my breast, and, swinging round and round, fought off the dogs. I felt, just then, that all the dogs in the West could not, and should not capture that fawn after its weakness had appealed to my strength. So is it, when human helplessness appeals to Almighty God. Well do I remember when the hounds of sin were after my soul, until, at last, I ran into the arms of Almighty God." A. C. Dixon
This so well describes our helplessness and our initial surrender and the safety we find in Him.
In addition it made me wonder why on an ongoing basis I always have to get myself into such a place of desperation that 'running' is necessary.
Why can I not remain in Him?
Remaining would = unbroken fellowship; trusting every day to Him; constant confession of sin; an understanding of His will daily; contentment
Not remaining = jumping ahead of His will - choosing mine instead; anxiousness; exhaustion; wrong choices; sin; busy
We only have this day, and so instead of getting into the place that a desperate chase must send me running to Him - I choose to remain in Him - those arms, the nail scarred hands, they long to surround me and today I will be still, I will remain.