I am sitting in my bed because I'm so dead tired, taking care of some email and going to sleep early!
Looking back over my day, I wondered if there was anything positive and of lasting eternal value at all?
I woke up with a headache after the pie baking evening at Crossroads last night. (Wendell and Jeff are sure it was the sugar!) Because of not feeling great I slept an extra hour then went straight to the Crossroads Directors meeting.
I love this group of people more than I can describe! They care about what's going on in our ministry and in one another's lives. And they challenge me personally. Today was no exception. I always leave thinking...
I went immediately to a lunch meeting with a technical genius guy and Arnie, and it was also very stimulating! I again left there thinking! I hope this meeting results in new friendships!
Next I cooked dinner at home for my hubby and son Eric, we enjoyed having him with us - I cannot even begin to describe how often I praise the Lord that I have a Godly family following Him!
And now I find myself thinking about all the thinking I did today.
Was this day as God intended my day to be? Do I just turn my days into what pleases me? How many pointless - possibly hurtful words came out of my mouth today?
It's funny what some consider one of my gifts can also be my biggest weakness.
They are one of two things - either a blessing or a curse.
If there is anything between those two extreems it may be pointless words I guess - that sound a lot like BLA -BLA - BLA to those in ear shot.
Oh how I want especially my spoken words to draw others toward the Lord or toward a Godly decision in our ministry, or however He needs them to lead others...
I pray you hear the words deep in my heart tonight Lord - the words no one else will ever hear. May those hidden words always be the deep longing for you that I feel right now.