poor preparation

I wonder if God has been impressed with my hard work this week?

I wonder if He would have preferred that I spend more time with Him instead?

I feel I have done a pretty good job this week preparing all the details of the Easter services with the help of an amazingly talented staff!

What I have not done a good job at is preparing my heart.

Meetings, planning, talking, leading, working ...no time for personal preparation. Or at least that is how I acted this week.

So tonight I confess to the Lord - the same Lord that gave His life for me...that at times this week I have acted as if He doesn't exist. As if He is not the most important thing in my life, as if preparing a service that honors Him is more important than my relationship with Him.

I confess.