Yesterday as I grew more and more agitated with my schedule and the lack of hours remaining in what already felt like the longest day of my life a thought occurred to me. Can God be honored in the end result of my work if the process is not God honoring?
When I end up successfully pulling off creative support for a service, or take a meal to a sick friend or master a new program I've been struggling with but the process to get there is UGLY - does it count so to speak...or does God see it as filthy rags?
I had a brain drop last evening and purchased not a small - but Venti sized Starbucks as I rushed from store to store couponing and picking up a couple of things for the ministry. I paid for it later, and later and later still...by 2:00 a.m. I remembered why I was having so much trouble sleeping - caffeine!
However, I know now, that was no coffee fix - it was time God wanted my attention. He brought the most random things to my mind - some things that required that I ask His forgiveness, somethings that required praising Him and just prayer for those that filled my mind.
One thing He revealed was my attitude regarding the process of some of my work recently. My attitude STUNK as I worked on a home project recently. Ultimately I did complete it and even managed to complete it well - but I wondered, can the end result really be honored or celebrated since the process was ugly?
I understand He uses even the lost to accomplish His will - so I know the answer and yet as it applies to me personally I think I forfeit any right of celebration when I squander the journey.
Today I hope to remain in Him - stay attentive to His leading and watch for opportunities to serve Him and encourage others. If you are His - no detail in your life is a mistake. Yes, wrong decisions can cause problems but walk right back into Him and abide in Him. That's my goal today - to ABIDE in Him!